April 2013
6 posts
I went to a party last night at my brother’s new girlfriend’s house. It was actually a lot of fun. I’m definitely an introvert, so I’m always paranoid about meeting new people and awkward silences. Thankfully, there was very little of that. I wasn’t sure about his new girlfriend the first time I met her, but after last night, I quite like her. She seems very...
March 2013
3 posts
This is Michelle for you...: I’m a magnificent... →
asexyhoodie:
I’m a magnificent creature. I’m beautiful and ageless, soulful and wise, caring and tender, creative and talented, strong and courageous. I deserve to be someone’s first choice. I deserve to be their greatest fantasy. I deserve to be cherished and held sacred, precious and honored. I’m worthy of…
Words of wisdom from a lovely woman I’ve grown to admire and respect.
February 2013
2 posts
asexyhoodie:
I have the ability and knowledge necessary to move forward, however slowly, towards the body I want for myself.
I have the drive and dedication necessary to kick ass.
I have the passion and fortitude necessary to seek out the life I want.
I have the strength and wit necessary to learn and grow.
I have the beauty and courage necessary to be me.
I had a dream about running last night. I was running fast, gracefully darting between people and objects in my way. I felt very free. It was a nice dream, especially because I didn’t feel out of breath. I’m still keeping up with learning to run. I have switched programs to one that my aunt uses, which helps non runners go up to either running or run/walk a 10k. I switched programs...
January 2013
4 posts
My condo is nearly 1000 square feet of wall to wall laminate flooring, except for one mat I keep at my front door. The fucking cats will only barf up their hair balls on the mat! Everywhere else would be easy cleanup for me, but nooooooo they have to barf on that mat! So annoying. And that’s my rant for the day.
Week 4
Wow, week 4 of the Couch-to-5K is going to be tough. I may end up repeating week 4 again. I did the first workout this morning, and it isn’t go as well as I had hoped. I had to stop and catch my breath a few times, and didn’t fully complete the last 5 minute run. I’m trying to not feel discouraged. When I started week one, it was hard to just run the one minute increments. Now I...
Week 2!
Well, I successfully completed week 1 of the couch-to-5k program! I completed the first workout of week 2 before work. It is going very well! I’m actually enjoying it so far! I turn on my iPod and listen to my favorite upbeat songs (note to self - buy iPod arm band), and the half hour goes by pretty quickly. I like how I feel after, like I actually accomplished something. And the shower...
Day 1
I’ve been inspired by mostcuriouskitten to start running. She told me about couch to 5k, so I decided to give it a try. The first workout went surprisingly better than I had hoped! Don’t get me wrong, it wasn’t easy nor was I going fast, by any means! I feel good right now, and I’m happy I’ve started. I want to be healthy, I want to prevent some of the things that...
December 2012
1 post
I wonder what it’s like to love a job. I wonder if I loved my job, if it would be awesome to return to work after a nice holiday. Right now, I’m feeling lonely and missing my family, and HATING this stupid job. Don’t get me wrong, I’m grateful to have a job that allows me to take care of myself. I just don’t feel my job is important, that I’m making a...
November 2012
2 posts
Alone
I went to Mexico with my family for a week - my brother, my mom and step dad and his 2 boys. We stayed at the same resort from 2 years ago, the one that I spent 2 weeks at with my ex. I had my own room, which was a bit difficult. Thankfully I was so exhausted most of the time that I really only slept and showered there. Nothing had really changed on the resort, and I thought about him a lot. It...
Patience GONE
I’ve already checked out. I have absolutely no patience left to deal with clients today. Sooo happy that I took tomorrow off! 3 more sleeps until Mexico time! Woohoo!
October 2012
8 posts
“You can spend minutes, hours, days, weeks, or even months over-analyzing a...”
– Tupac Shakur (via lastdaysofmagic)
“I automatically assume people won’t like me, so I don’t talk to them unless they...”
– Stephanie Kuehnert, Ballads of Suburbia (via lastdaysofmagic)
This is me. Absolutely.
Karma
My soon to be sister in law has posted numerous rants on Facebook about all the things that are going wrong and pissing her off. Ah, Karma! I want so badly to like each and every one of her posts, however I have restrained myself (so far, anyways). I can’t help but think of all the nasty comments she’s made over the years, all the bad behaviour, all the CRAP we’ve put up with,...
September 2012
1 post
Home
It was my brother’s first weekend, sans wife. He picked me up after work on Friday, and we went home to mom’s. It was amazing to be able to spend that time with him. Over the past few years, it was rare for him to go to mom’s, I think because of his wife. I’m happy to have him back, and for him to do what he wants. It’s wonderful. I so look forward to when he meets...
August 2012
5 posts
Looking for a sugar daddy
I know what I want to be (lab tech), but it is simply not feasible. I could really use a sugar daddy to pay for my mortgage and schooling so I could quit this stupid job of mine and do something interesting.
Any takers? Pretty please?
Happy happy!!
I am beyond happy! Totally THRILLED! My brother and his wife are DONE! He seems quite happy, and said it has been a long time coming. My brother now has the freedom to be happy, and meet someone who cares about him! Today’s the best day ever! Weeeeeeeeee :)
There’s nothing like spending a week and a half with my family to remind me how alone I really am. I left at about 4pm yesterday. I was fine at first, but it was a busy evening with unpacking, laundry, groceries etc. I slept like a log every single night at the lake. Last night, not so much. I don’t even have to be up for an hour but I’m tired of tossing and turning. I’m...
July 2012
3 posts
Already checked out...
Holidays start next weekend, and I’ve already checked out. I so don’t care about work. The days are painfully long. I cannot wait to get away!
My birthday last weekend was a bit disappointing. My friend had a party for me. I have been to a few parties at her place, and always lots of people are there. For my party? Not so much. Besides myself, my friend and her boyfriend, only ONE...
Thinking...
My mom and step dad were here this weekend. My mom drives me bonkers sometimes, and sometimes I want her to leave me alone. The thing is, I miss them. I’m sitting here, alone, sad and crying, wondering why I’ve chosen to stay here. I have very few friends, I spend almost all my time alone (I even work from home), I’m single, and I’m going to be 30 on the 22nd. Why did I...
June 2012
5 posts
Insecure
So I woke up at 9:30 this morning, and when I turned my phone on, I had a text from a friend asking what my plans are around 3ish today. I replied saying I work till 4, then nothing after. She read the message (sent through BBM), but has not sent anything further. Now my stupid brain is convincing me that the message wasn’t meant for me, and now she’s trying to figure out how to get...
I think I will have to kick the cats out of my bedroom tonight. I just got home from a weekend away, and they are always really high strung the first night. I have to start work very early, and I don’t feel like being woken up on the brink of sleep by claws on the laminate.
Sorry, kitties.
May 2012
12 posts
Hurt
I have no idea why I’m surprised. Every single time she says she is coming up for the weekend, it is NEVER the weekend, they always leave either Saturday or Sunday morning. I’m expected to give my entire weekend when I go home, to leave immediately when I’m done work Friday and stay until after supper Sunday. Even still, she makes me feel bad when I leave even that late, and...
“No, you can’t deny women their basic rights and pretend it’s about your...”
– President Barack Obama (via loungeypants)
Well said. Love it!
Nearly a year and a half...
Has passed, and still I haven’t let go. WTF is my issue? He is not coming back, he has who he really wanted all along, and I don’t want to be second choice. All I want is to not think about him anymore. I want to stop dreaming of our breakup. He wasn’t good for me, and I simply want to forget him. This is just utterly ridiculous.
Alone
I miss being touched. I miss being held. I miss that moment when that special someone crawls into bed and wraps their arms around me. I miss all the little things fom being in a relationship. It has been nearly a year and a half since I had it, and it is starting to feel like it must have been a dream. I look around, and I know it is real and exists for others, I just wish I could have it again.
umbrakinesis:
I always push people away when all I really want to do is be with them
